April McGowan

Timing is Everything

file000683881360Timing is everything.

I haven’t blogged for a while. Months really. I’ve been in a period of physical and emotional recovery. This has taken up all my mental energies for the past year. While I’ve been journaling, trying my hand at poetry, working on scant chapters of my next novel, and copying books of the Bible (Psalms, Revelations, 1 and 2 Thessalonians, Philippians, Ephesians and now working through Romans so far), my blog has come to a standstill.
I’ve had people write to me and ask me to keep going. I’ve had lots of encouragement in this period of downtime–you know who you are, and I thank you!
But, timing is everything.
20160611_111536I’ve got this rosebush outside my living room window. It used to be huge and unmanageable. It rambled all over the place–despite aphids and other critters using it for meals. Then we built a fence. I truly gave no thought to the rosebush when we built that fence. But in doing so, we unwittingly blocked its light source, and it began to shrink.
I grew sicker, and as I did, I watched it die back more and more, to a stub.20160611_143723 I considered moving it several times. But making the decision and mustering the energy to do so seemed out of my ability. Truly, until last year, I’d given up on flowers and the like. It felt like too much to handle. But last year one of my dearest friends encouraged me and brought me starter plants and I made my porch a flowery haven rekindling hope in my spirit. It’s now my favorite place to sit and read and visit.

 

This year, when I looked out the window, I thought that rose was surely dead. I felt rather bad. In 20160611_111530the midst of illness and depression, I’d let that poor thing die. And then, seemingly overnight, it sprang to life. Whatever water source it found, whatever trace light it horded, it still had life.
So, today I decided to move it. But when I looked up how to transplant a rosebush, the article said, “Wait until very early spring, before it has any growth, just after the ground has thawed.”
So, I might have to wait again, another season before I dig up that poor thing. But I can assure you, I won’t forget about it again.

Now, God doesn’t build a fence around us and forget us–we’re the likely ones to do the forgetting. But He might build a barrier around us to protect us. He might put a hand on us to keep us still while we recover. He might put us in situations where all we can do is wait–wait on the gardener to be pruned back, to be nurtured, to rest. He could bring you to a place where you have no where else to turn because He wants to meet you there. ┬áIt might be a hard spot, one we can’t see a way out of, but He’s there, waiting for us to turn to Him and ask Him for help, waiting for us to rely on Him solely. Waiting for us to turn our lives over to Him so He can take the lead. Waiting for us. Loving us.

Timing is everything.

Jesus said: “I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he bears much fruit. For apart fromm me, you can do nothing. (John15:5)

8 Comments

  1. Jan Pierce
    Jun 11, 2016

    Beautiful post, April. And realizing what you’ve been through I’m more grateful than ever that you took the time to read Prema. I’m in another round of edits hoping that Les Stobbe will choose to be my agent. We’ll see. I may need to wait for His perfect timing too. Thanks for sharing.

    • April
      Jun 11, 2016

      I love your story, Jan! I know you’ll find a home for it! (hugs)

  2. Juanita Wickey
    Jun 11, 2016

    Loved your article. It was a blessing to my heart and spirit. Hope things start turning around for you. Praying for you.

  3. annita
    Jun 11, 2016

    God is faithful. My gardener wants to take perfect care of me. He loves to spend time with me. I can rest in his care. Thanks, April!

  4. elainemanders
    Jun 11, 2016

    April, I’ve been wondering about you. Depression often comes with chronic illness. I’ve been churning out ebooks the past year. Decided I didn’t have time to wait for trad publishing to get everything out. Then in April my sweet husband went home to the Lord. But my job isn’t finished yet, so I continue. It’s obvious He’s still working through you as well.

    • April
      Jun 11, 2016

      I’ve thought about you and prayed for you often, Elaine. One step and one day at a time! The Lord is faithful to provide.

  5. Love the pictures you paint with words. I’m more prone to punch a hole in the fence instead of waiting for the right season. Learning every day to seek God’s timing, knowing it will most assuredly not be my own.

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