April McGowan

Watching Her Fly

Watching Her Fly

Watching Her Fly

These past few months, I’ve been helping my daughter prep for her final SAT’s, getting colleges lined up, discovering I’m not ready and worrying she wasn’t either. To be honest, I’ve been carrying the stress of doing this with me for years. Have I done enough? Did I drop the ball anywhere (oh yes, I know I did!)? Could we really trust God with this person He’d gifted to us for a time?

Yesterday we visited her first college choice. It’s here in town–but nonetheless momentous. As my husband and I dropped her off, I didn’t feel any of the hesitation I expected to feel with this huge step. Maybe it was due to her bright sparkly eyes, or her anticipation of doing something with a group (this highly motivates my extrovert), or watching her excitement of being on her own and stretching her adult legs. It wasn’t half an hour after dropping her off that she texted me. The school chef came out to speak to her personally in line about her food allergies upon hearing her concerns and provided her with safe, tasty food. Then about her dorm room. Then about the fun she was having. And the next day a photo list of all the classes she was going to attend.

We didn’t coach her in these things. We dropped her off thinking she’d have a fun social time, hang out with people she knew who were already attending there, and get the feel of campus. But my daughter went into it with the idea that she would push her limits and get that full college feel–that up late, up early, cram-every-second of classes into your day kind of push. We had no idea she’d do that. In addition to packing her day with classes, she attended three open houses and interviewed department representatives. She got an idea of what each program offered and the scholarships available. She gathered deadlines and contacts.

We met with her adviser and she represented herself, asked good questions, and was professional and outgoing about her passions and goals. My husband and I just sat back seeing this person we’d encouraged to finish projects, hounded to clean her room, and urged to keep deadlines in a new light. We were watching her fly.

As we left, she said, “I’m going to love college.” And she will. She sees it as an opportunity and the keys to opening a door and doing something she’ll love for the rest of her life, not a burden to be carried out. Our hope of homeschooling to create a desire for life-long learning suddenly came to fruition. All the pushing, the nagging, the encouraging had come down to handing the responsibility over to her and her guiding Lord.

So, please excuse this post of joy. I’m not bragging by any means. I’m grateful. So thankful that we held onto the promise that through prayer and teaching and apologizing for mistakes made, this person is ready to go to college. But more than that, this person is ready for adulthood. Ready to fly.

And we’re just standing in appreciation and awe, watching her stretch her wings–watching her fly.

 

5 Comments

  1. melodyroberts
    Nov 7, 2015

    Beautiful! Our God is faithful. Praying for you!

    • AMcGowan
      Nov 7, 2015

      Thanks, Mel. It’s so amazing watching Him work these steps out with her!

  2. Jeanie
    Nov 7, 2015

    Congrats, Mom!! That is so awesome – as so many young people now are … well, you know. What a great work the Lord is doing in her, through you!! Praise God!!

    • AMcGowan
      Nov 7, 2015

      Thanks Jeanie! I had expected this to be a time of slight grieving, in this “loss” of our little girl. Instead I’m learning and watching and appreciating the Father and His plan worked out in her life. Such a blessing!

  3. Juanita Wickey
    Nov 7, 2015

    So enjoyed your sharing. Your daughter was very fortunate to have such parents. Homeschooling seems to be the best if the parent is up to knowing the ropes of it. My youngest son’s wife homeschooled her three and one is in OSU ROTC doing terrific. Straight A’s, but then she is not in engineering as her major. lol. My youngest graduated from OSU and her mom finished her Major in business at OSU, otherwise she spent 4 years in Thailand, as she is from there. They both love the Lord. Am so grateful.

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