April McGowan

Dream Weaver

I’ve been dreaming, hoping, praying about getting a publishing contract for a long time. A long, long time. So, about two weeks ago I got the email every writer hopes to get, the one that said, “Good news! We’re going to publish your book.” (Although, it was probably more articulate than that).

After re-reading the email about five times, it sunk in. I proceeded to try and tell everyone I could think of—by the way, those of you that weren’t home…where were you??!! And then, it really sunk in. All my hard work, all my hopes and dreams were going to be out there for everyone to see. You might guess what follows: fear. Will I be able to keep up, will my health hold, what about all those unknowns?

Now, I know I’m not alone in this. I immediately went and panicked to my new author group and they reassured me they knew exactly what I felt like. My editor was very supportive (cool…my editor), and other writer friends were encouraging. All those things helped. But, it wasn’t until I turned to the One who planted the seed of this dream in my heart all those years ago that my fears subsided. I won’t say disappeared, because self-doubt looms over my shoulder (it’s rather black and fuzzy with green eyes..no wait, that’s my cat). But, when that self-doubt arises, I’m doing my best to remember the dream weaver, the original Author of life, has it all in hand.

I’d love to hear if you’ve ever had a dream come true—and what you did with those nagging doubts!

Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,  to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Full text here.)


  1. Laurene Wells
    Jun 26, 2012

    I’m still waiting for my ship to come in, and terribly worried that I’ll be stuck in traffic when it arrives.

    • amcgowan
      Jun 26, 2012

      Um…can’t happen! If your ship is being steered by the One who guides us, then you can’t miss it if your eyes are on Him. Keep your chin up!

  2. Tiffany Caldwell
    Jun 26, 2012

    The nagging doubts are always there. The feeling of being inadequate creeps in from time to time. God is faithful. He gives me moments that I experience that I overwhelmingly know that he placed me there at that particular moment for that specific experience or encounter. It is these moments that I know I am in his will. It keeps me pushing through the nagging doubts and feelings of being inadequate. I am so proud of you April!! God before me, who can be against me!!

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