On paper, things don’t look so good right now.  But, paper isn’t what I’m thinking of.  I’m thinking of God’s provision.  I’m thinking of spiritual growth and a changed perspective.  Our changed perspective.   Here’s the breakdown:  I’ve been sick a month, and it’s turned into pneumonia.  As it’s my 5th bout of the infection in the past few years, that gives me reason to pause.  My left lung takes on infection very easily now.  So I must take extra care and precautions.  I’ve got some good medications, one of which I don’t much care for the side effects of,  but you know I like breathing, so I’m going to take it.

Part two: Today my husband lost his job in a round of layoffs.  Now, about five years ago we went through the same thing.  I have to admit that five years ago I panicked.  I drew in, and I shut down.  I knew God would provide, but since I didn’t know how He would do it, I chose to worry.  It didn’t do me very much good.  In the end, we were greatly blessed.  God provided amazingly, and my husband had a job in a month.  So this time  I sort of expected to feel that sense of panic, I mean, I’m sick, we have a lot of medical needs right now, and my son is on a very expensive diet–but you know what?   NONE.  No panic.  I’ve got a long list of things I could worry about and I could talk myself into it I guess, but as the saying goes, why buy trouble?  We’ve been through so much, especially in the past year with my son’s illness.  We’ve learned to rely on God for our every need–emotional and physical.  Because of that I have NO doubt that whatever is coming our way will be okay.  God will provide for our needs. Believe it or not, I’m looking forward to seeing what He will do next!

Mathew 6:25-34

25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.